A Mother's Love

I am so grateful to have raised two beautiful girls.  If anyone ask me would your kids take care of you in your time of need.  I would have to say yes loving kids, kids that express nothing but love for their mom well being.

I do not want to be a burden to anyone.  And not being able to work has put a strain on everything in my life.  I pray everyday and I believe God will bring me out of my sickness in his own time.  Its like taking my burdens to the Lord and leaving them there.  I need to have more patience!!!!!!!!!!!
Being sick puts tou in a depressing state you put on this happy face on the outside but on the inside you feel trapped like you're under water and there's nothing you can do. It true you can't control how you feel.  I wish more than anything that God heal my body and thing were back to normal.

#Motherslove
#Janesebaconpresents 

Just Thinking

Just thanking God right now for his many blessings that he has stored upon me.  I'm not feeling good today I've had a headache for several days feel a cold coming on and my body aches.  I'm not claiming any of it just putting all in God hands.

I can't remember the last time I cried but I do know God heard my last cry as well as all my break downs.  God knows what I'm standing in the need of always. He supply all my needs. I'm getting watered eyes right now thinking about my grandma (Mont) oh how I miss her she was my rock.

# janesebaconpresents 

Just cant sleep

I have a long journey a head of me. Every time I think about it the road is hard.  My faith is strong, God knows all my troubles. Sometimes I feel that it not enough time in a day to do the things my brain has set up to do.

#Strong
#Godwillneverforsakeme

Frustrated at times

I get angry sometimes when things just don't go my way. I pray that God give me a rejuvenated body yeah I know that highly likely it was only a thought.  My health is not a options anymore it mean a great deal to survive.  The things I go though on a daily bases to make it through the day.  On oxygen constant need it to help me breathe. Before breakfast sugar check insulin on until lunch and dinner time.  Feeling down today but optimistic! !!!!!

Day 4 and still in the hospital

Laying in the bed just in a dazes not knowing what's really going on with my condition.  Every Specialist is saying something totally different from the other.  Today its Pluresy they say related to my Lupus flare up which causes hard to breathe makes it very painful. #JaneseBaconPresents

Today feels like a pretty good day!!

I am sooo ready to go home right now  6 days are to many. Lungs are clear as well as my chest. The pain is still there but tolerable.  Thank God for family they have visited often. Praying that God give my oldest daughter strength for sticking by me each and every time my illness flares up.  She will not complain nor will she make excuses and that's what I love about her the most.  She just say Mom I'm here for you. I'm having a moment right now.  I don't know why my Lupus is taking a front seat all of a sudden, I just embrace it as my test because my faith is strong.

ITS ONE OF THOSE DAY YOU JUST DON'T WANT TO GO

This time I was just tired just tired didn't want to go back to the hospital.  I couldn't hardly breathe and it hurted bad to inhale Also pain on my left side where there's fluid on my left side. My daughter tried to get me to go the weekend but you're hard headed when you think you can heal yourself and that me all the way.  Nexy day I got a call from lil sissy to go to the hospital please go for her so I did just that For her she said if anything happen to me she would act real crazy so that was definitely time to go.  Surly they admitted me into the hospital.   Not feeling my best bit a little better I'm on a IV steroids that has my sugar well over 400 but need the steroids to open my passages to breathe.   The worst thing of it all is I feel like a pin cushion stick, stick,stick everyday.