Today is a So/So Day!!

I'm up at 12:10 am thinking today was a so/so day I'm a little pain. I started having this intense headaches that just won't stop the Dr. put me on a headache meds which I is still at the pharmacy because I can't afford it now that's sad for me. I'm depressed most days due to pain and now I'm having trouble breathing back to the oxygen it helps my chest I guess it calms it down Still unable to get pain meds all pharmacies are still out that's so crazy to me. I try to put on a happy face but deep down I'm sad and depress feeling I can't control. I have my finger wrapped with a ace band that I cut so my finger won't bend due to the pain. Funny thing my other fingers hurt as well just can't find a finger brace. I just pray and go on I don't believe God brought me this far to leave me so I dealing with the pain. My grandma use to say thank you for the pain and I second that.......

ITS NOT FAIR

I'm so angry because every pharmacy is out of my pain medicine. What I don't understand how could every pharmacy be out when I'm in desperate need of it. I'm in so much pain and I don't think I'm the only one in need and can't get it filled. As September 6, 2014 Federal Regulations made a lot of changes for Hydrocodone it went from a class 3 to a class 2 making it hard to obtain. So I'll just play the waiting game and pray that God fix this mess that somebody created. My depression has sunk deeper than it already was not knowing when I'll get relief. To God be the Glory I'll keep praying can't stop won't stop!!!!!

Fro Fog

I found out different things that I didn't know that's help me understand why: From my Sjogren group memory loss is from fro fog. Didn't understand why I would mean something and say something else or forget things oh it would be in my head but I just couldn't say it. I would say to myself what's wrong with you or I feel stupid.  My daughter would say mom that's not right you mean this or that. Its related to Fibro myalgia and you get when you become stressed. Well I'm stressed all the time stressed, stretched you name it. Now I know because I thought I was losing my mind at times, your sanity is a terrible thing to lose.  When my daughter takes me to the Dr. and he or she looks at and ask about my problems sometime I don't have a clue and I feel real stupid because I have to make me brain think or wake it up. My solution now is to try to write it down before I forget.