Day 4 and still in the hospital

Laying in the bed just in a dazes not knowing what's really going on with my condition.  Every Specialist is saying something totally different from the other.  Today its Pluresy they say related to my Lupus flare up which causes hard to breathe makes it very painful. #JaneseBaconPresents

Today feels like a pretty good day!!

I am sooo ready to go home right now  6 days are to many. Lungs are clear as well as my chest. The pain is still there but tolerable.  Thank God for family they have visited often. Praying that God give my oldest daughter strength for sticking by me each and every time my illness flares up.  She will not complain nor will she make excuses and that's what I love about her the most.  She just say Mom I'm here for you. I'm having a moment right now.  I don't know why my Lupus is taking a front seat all of a sudden, I just embrace it as my test because my faith is strong.

ITS ONE OF THOSE DAY YOU JUST DON'T WANT TO GO

This time I was just tired just tired didn't want to go back to the hospital.  I couldn't hardly breathe and it hurted bad to inhale Also pain on my left side where there's fluid on my left side. My daughter tried to get me to go the weekend but you're hard headed when you think you can heal yourself and that me all the way.  Nexy day I got a call from lil sissy to go to the hospital please go for her so I did just that For her she said if anything happen to me she would act real crazy so that was definitely time to go.  Surly they admitted me into the hospital.   Not feeling my best bit a little better I'm on a IV steroids that has my sugar well over 400 but need the steroids to open my passages to breathe.   The worst thing of it all is I feel like a pin cushion stick, stick,stick everyday.

Early days

I was up early today. Early days are so tiresome for me. I'm on insulin now and my sugar levels are just up and down trying to get it under control. Another added problem that I dont need. Thanking God for life right now.

Not feeling myself today

It feels like another cold coming on praying and hoping that I weather the storm.  This is definitely a tea day for me.

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I LOVE THE KIDS

I can do all things through Christ that strengthen me.  I saw my baby today it felt like a breath of fresh air didn't know how much I missed her.  I love the fact that she remembered me. 

The Day of No Crying

Today was a good day I didn't cry or nor did I think about crying.  I didn't even think about smoking today that's a blessing for me. 

Quit Cold Turkey

I feel like in being hunted by demons day by day. I stopped smoking but the feeling i sstill there I would by lying if I said in good when really I'm not. Quitting cold turkey is the craziest thing I ever heard, this is the hardest thing I ever had to do. I cant tell my family they just dont understand dont need them being sympathetic. I can hear them with my ears I just dont wont to respond as if what they said will help ease my mind. The saddest thing about all this is I'm craving so bad but I choose life.


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Why these cards?

My Emotions are very heavy most days . There are things that I'm a custom of doing myself. It just shatters my heart, because I am a very self sufficient person. Sometimes I rock myself to sleep crying to myself, because I am not or will never be in that happy place anymore. I feel like someone has dealt me some real bad cards. But my faith is always hopeful.

I Never Knew

I never knew that on your bed of affiction everything stops in your life. I didn't prepare myself for such a bad drop in my life. This illness stopped income, my mission and my life style
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